Sometimes Human being are just so emo...
They just want to make their life complicated...
Ya..refering to myself.
But sometime complicated life makes you wake up and realise a lot of things around you.
But this post is just for me to remind myself that no matter what i do...think for him...
Even if one day i really really make a stupid wrong step, i knew i will regret not him..cos it my loss not his...
The moment i received his e-mail, tat moment..i cried like mad...just wondering am i really dreaming to have such a good man to step in my life is he really mine?
Maybe i meet too many bad guys...in the past that i cannot believe this is happening to me..oh gosh!
I am not saying they are really very bad but as compared to him, they are bad...
A man who is willing:
to make u happy even though he is not happy
to let u go out even though he is not happy
to cook for u even when he is damn tired
to listen to ur sorrow even when is very weary
to help you take this, take tat, do whatever u said as long as it is under your command.
to lighten your load whenever he can
to make you laugh, he can make a fool of himself
to make your family member each and everyone happy as long as i am happy...
As a matter of fact, he treat my cousin, grandma, parent better than i treat them..i really had to admit that...they also know it..cos he use his heart to do all this, not just to praise them.
he is the one who always update me my cousin blog like what happen to them and etc.
I know everyone must be hating me or laughing at me, teasing at me for being f**king stupid..if ever ever i let this man outta my life...
But the main things is now..i cannot face him for too long cos there is a guilt inside my heart.
i feel like stabbing myself to be frank...
guilt as in..not worthy of him, he can find a women that really love him wholeheartedly not to be shaken so easily.
tat y i said i myself make my f**king life so complicated when actually it can be so simple.
Yesterday we go IMM, he make my day so happy when my job is f**king like shit.
i just want to tell you...
I am SORRY...even though i said it alot of times...
I know i am not a good girl, a 100% faithful girl...
I know u been giving it to me for dun know 9876554433 times...
I never expected that u are so so important to me...i always thought...cos D had great impact on me...J make my days joyful w/o D...
but u are not D..Not J..Just V...just urself...
When i write this blog, my tears just keep rolling down...because i am just a f**king emo girl..always love to remember the past..no matter how bad/good it is..how stupid i am...
this blog is meant for him to see..i dun need anyone to comment abt my character or what..cos this blog is mainly post it for myself to remind my stupidity and for him...
whoever see just see...ok...
End
Regards
kim
P.S Thanx for the breakfast..this song is for u..as long as i love u...
i will always 只牵你的手....
我的车上会有
你的特别座
我的肩膀是你
专属的枕头
你说西或往东
听你的没错
我家里所有是你的杰作
虽然你常念很久
还把过去拿来说
那是因为你爱找 我懂
有时你会气很久狠心不跟我联络
也是因为你爱我 我懂
闪为你我愿意说 Oh Babe
只牵你的手
就算世界有尽头 Oh Babe
只牵你的手 别怕诱惑邢朦多
把我放在我心中 牵着我的手
我的车上会有
你的特别座
我的肩膀是你专属的枕头
你说西或往东听你的没错
我家里所有是你的杰作
虽然你常念很久
还把过去拿来说那是因为你爱找 我懂
有时你会气很久狠心不跟我联络
也是因为你爱我 我懂
闪为你我愿意说 Oh Babe
只牵你的手就算世界有尽头 Oh Babe
只牵你的手别怕诱惑邢朦多
把我放在我心中 牵着我的手
我给的够不够你慢慢感受
因为你就是承诺
闪为你我愿意说 Oh Babe
只牵你的手就算世界有尽头 Oh Babe
只牵你的手别怕诱惑邢朦多
把我放在我心中 牵着我的手
